demons

at least the ones ive noticed for the majority and relevant life
they all linger, but also visit me
they are esscence, but sometimes manifest in weird ways
i try to draw them, they are all apart of me

✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

cyber-ender-girl

shes fine. she is responsible for all of my flashes of lights, shes not nefarious. but she is super fucking annoying sometimes, always wants to talk about some elitist shit. she wants me to stay here, not in real life. ive tried killing her before, it never works. but shes creative and fills me with energy and ideas. when i do neuter her with medication or whatever else, i always feel my life lacks electricity.

✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

me (malignant)

the most nefarious, one i will never be able to tame fully. she is me, when i dont want to be me. i have to tolerate her, but i dont listen to her. i hate the things she says and thinks. she is all of the bad, not a nice thing to say, not to me or anyone. she is really monstrous. shes obsessive and abusive, manipulitive and conniving.

✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

i dont know what she is

shes alluring, yet eerie. she feels ethereal and sinister. she makes me starve, she makes me believe id be beautiful and pure and wanted, but i dont trust her. i know she is a siren of some kind. listening to her calls leads me to suffer.

✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

mother, me

it is mother and me. beauty in toxic waste. residual, mutation, conflict. she is not nefarious, she is misunderstood. she is neither entirely myself or my mother, i know exactly what she is though. residual waste, harbringer.

✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .